Mental health

When I first posted this quote on my blog page, just 6 days after being on a bridge ledge for 8.5 hours, I came home, expecting help, but words such as these came at me.

I come back to this today as they are slowly creeping back into my world, uttered by those who hope to understand, yet in reality, thank you for caring, but I would rather hear nothing then this.

My original words (which I can link too)

*𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡’𝑠 𝑎 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐼 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑢𝑡ℎ *𝐼’𝑚 𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑠 𝑋𝑌𝑍 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑒*

𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑞𝑢𝑜𝑡𝑒 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑡, 𝑎𝑠 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑙 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑡ℎ 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑏𝑎𝑑, 𝑖𝑛 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑡 𝐼 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑙𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑢𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑎 𝑤ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑒 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡.

𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡, 𝐼𝑡𝑠 𝑎 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡’𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑜𝑐𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝑎𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝, 𝑎𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒?

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑏𝑒𝑑?

𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑏𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑛𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒 𝑣𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑑. 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒’𝑠 𝑙𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑙 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒’𝑠 𝑙𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑎𝑑, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒’𝑠 𝑙𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡.

𝑊ℎ𝑦 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑎 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛. 𝐼𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑢𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑤𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑛𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑒. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠, 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟.

𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎 𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑜𝑚 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑐𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦.

(𝑄𝑢𝑜𝑡𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑚𝑦 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑎)