*Listen today, as tomorrow may fall silent*

After falling into the path of mental health in 2019, I have struggled daily, preferring to try and hide behind my anon personal blog, preferring to pretend all is OK. Other people had it worse, I was told all the time to think of others, yet no one had ever actually listened to my story. My blog, I once shared openly, to be accused of glamourizing suicide. So I found it easier to pull on a strong mask, and suffer quietly. Attempts on my life, the drinking, the over doses, the self harm, the struggle to leave the house, intense fear of men, the list is endless, my husband chose to speak to people about it all, whilst I refused to acknowledge the severity of the situation.

In the last year, able to pick up a camera once again, I have thought often about trying in some way to do a photoshoot in relation to mental health. Yet I didn't know where to start. A few months back, on yet another sleepless night, when my mind plays weird games, it came up with *Photographic series, with dancers, reflecting on your path you still walk to this day* Hastily grabbing my phone, I make a note to myself, as inevitably, I would forget by the morning. I start to plan. Now I sit here, *Hauntingly Silent* has come into a reality, my photoshoot's have started, and I cannot wait to share this journey with you. Whilst I respect all those that share their bright stories of hope and saved lives, I prefer a reality, one with pain, torment, fear, living with suicidal ideation, whilst interspersed with good times. I will be sharing the darkness, because the light isn't here for me yet, Nor do I think it will

(this is a blog/photographic set yet to come, but this will one day make sense)

For now, I thank you for supporting me on this, I hope you stay with me. My messages are open.